But when she gave me my drink, it came with a look and a gesture that I've never experienced and hope to never again. It was her dropping the beer onto the table, sliding it towards me, and giving me the most chilling look I've not seen in quite a long time. It was her discarding me as a person, saying nothing but "you have wronged me and I no longer consider you in any way." It was incredibly sincere, I've not seen such an honest expression of emotion in months and it chilled me to the bone. Simply put, I've never been discarded before. Even by an acquaintance, no one has rejected me so completely.
For the rest of the night it was the characteristic cold shoulder 'I am a black hole of scorn' type of service from her. When she eventually looked at me I called her over and apologized for being a bitch to her, but damage done. I'm a big fat pansy for feeling this terrible over a look, but most of the time people are a little two faced... trying to wear a mask, trying to hide one emotion with another, trying to give you what you want to hear and see, but not her. It was pure contempt, unfiltered and unmuddled.
Fascinating.
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